My last answer.

When I was writting at my blog, I was talking to myself. Never thought I would speak with you about it. I thought it was lost. And you were the one who chose this way. Nothing necessary to say, so. I´m really sorry for not having answers. I read your post. Then I looked foward to old words. The one brought me sure. I was safe and it would last forever.
And you said I used to know you. Honestly, i´m still sure who you are. But sometimes gets hard to find it inside you. But don´t you remember that I wanted to know you all. I would like to see you when you´re happy, you´re sad, when you´re smiling, you´re crying. I would like to know you angry, you sexy, you sweet, you asleep, you as best friend. You as a strange. You as a lover.
I wanted to know what you can and can´t do. How far would you go? How long would you take?

I may got all this. My eyes lost the colors. And it was a whole life. As I already told you, that you´re my golden star. My number ONE. I just didn´t know I wouldn´t like to get out of this dream, of this friendship, of your life, as a strange. And get out of your life is hard as hell. Is so painful.

I know I hurted you as uou did to me. And my words were so insane. But they were truly at that time. At that facts. I can´t regret. I love you. I miss you, like I´ve never missed nobody else. Now nothing can do any change. You said you miss me...And I know you do...
Not saying that I´m special but we used to be so close. And i´m always wondering what you´re doing. How you´re doing. How was your ninjutsu class...
Yestarday, I went to your home. And I´d forgot how much I missed going there...Doing gym. Be around with your parents...Hanging out with your sister. And the company of your terrible dog, Pepita. I´m not saying goodbye like if we were still talking... Sometimes I feel like I´m tearing you and him apart. Not that I am a big fan of your Romeu´s thing. But i really don´t want you guys break up while you are loving each other and it´s doing well for both.

I´m SO not done with your world as you wrote. I would never. I could live forever and still I wouldn´t get enought. I wouldn´t see, breath, live, catch, love enough.
I´m trying to keep my words for me, now. I´m answering you ´cause is totaly necessary. I´ve already closed my blog for you don´t need to get more words. I don´t want protection. I don´t want your/his sorry. I´m doing fine. Not THAT fine...But I´m working this out. I will be.
Just give me some time. Just know there will be always a empty place in me. When you want to come over and stay a litte bit.

I thought you known me. And you acted like you didn´t...I felt like I needed to let you know...
I´ve never expected to be your plan A. But now I feel like I´m not even knowning here. You know how much I love you...(If you don´t know...God! Where were you when i told i can´t say I love you, so sure as I´m saying to you. If you think you´re not sure...Look in my eyes...You know what I´m talking about. So Why pretend it´s not that truly? Not that truly, it´s just hurting. Just giving me pain...don´t you see?)

Your new boyfriend seens the center of your world. As he´s your boyfriend, you´re right.
You read me in silence, din´t get me right and staied sit with your lover, your chose.
We were both falling apart. And I felt it and wrote about it. Now I´m the guilty? No that right, yeah?

I don´t think it changed for better. But it´s still hurting. And you know...No place without you could be right for me, ever.
But you used to know this...YOU.